it has been such a long long time since i posted ANYTHING on here.

well, it has also been such a long long time since i wrote ANYTHING.

don't know what made me stop. maybe because i let go of my anger. maybe in my desperate need for escalation i know that if i sink into despair again i might do something a little rash. so now i've got friends that i can use like an emergency fireaxe to go vroom vroom vroom all over the spark-leaz. ^_^

or maybe i've matured past the point of angst-ridden teen with a meaty fist to shake at the world.

or maybe for once in my life i'm moderately happy.

or maybe i'm too addicted to life to really care about the big things that i was fixated on.

or maybe i've become connected to life and no longer cling to fantasy.

i dunno. reading some of my older entries has made me uber emo right now. that and i'm an ickle bit sleepy. ^________^

good night plate. good night spoon. good night cow spared upon the moon. ^_^